One night on January 14, 2002 I was up praying in my bed. I was praying more honestly than I had in my entire life. I was so desperate at that time in my life. My son was living with his paternal grandparents. I was living with my Grandmother. I had made a decision to become a Christian and had to give up the only way I knew how to live. I had to stop hanging out with certain friends, I had to decide not to smoke pot and drink for a living. I had to decide to get my son back, and I knew I needed the help of God. I remember sobbing and telling God that I would give up my life for Him. As soon as I said those words, I heard Him AUDIBLY say to me...
"Nicole,
I love you. You are my child. I have been with you through your trials.
You are my servant, your job is to tell people that you know me. I will be with you wherever you go"
I can not explain the amount of Joy and Peace that had come over me that night. It was more than a miracle! I felt years of anger and depression physically being removed from my body. I was filled with forgiveness for those who have hurt me. I had a new love, a new life. I began to get to know God in a whole different way.
